January 20th in the Year of Our Lord 2021
To whom it may concern,
O LORD, do not rebuke me in Your anger,
Nor chasten me in Your wrath.
These are the words of David, as he prayed to the Lord for mercy during time of trouble.
It seems that this past year has been nothing but trouble. The life that I was living became disrupted in March of last year and it has never returned to the same. I spend all of my time at work or in my home. I have not eaten out with my wife or spent time in fellowship with my friends since. Others do not understand this because they do not see the things that I have seen, people suffering on a ventilator and much death. Our church, for a time, did not hold corporate worship but that returned in the fall of last year; you cannot really fellowship with others in a worship service, as all eyes are forward and we are separated to every other pew.
During the last week of the year, I was infected with Covid-19 Sars, contracted from a patient. I was fairly ill but not like many other people; I still to this day, one month after contracting the virus, do not have any since of smell. During Christmas, my wife and I were at home alone, without family or friends, isolated because of the virus. On Christmas morning, I received a picture of one of my children that has broken us. I am not going to tell you what it is about but it has caused us a great deal of pain and has devastated our hearts. This morning, I learned that a ministry partner is sick, possibly covid, he is in a country where he may not get the care that he needs and I have trouble seeing how that ministry could possibly continue without him. The presidential inauguration, for the office of the president of the United States of America is today. Earlier this month, there was rioting at the capital regarding this transition of power. Transition of power in the U.S.A had historically been peaceful.
I do not know what the Lord is doing, or not doing for that matter. However, I know that the Lord is aware of these things because he is all knowing. I know that the Lord is all mighty; he can do whatever he wants, however, he wants to do it. And I know that the Lord is righteous, all things are working together for good. I have trouble seeing good in these things but I must trust the Lord and pray for the Lord’s will to be done.
In Christ alone,
The Nurse Theologian